From Hopeless to Healing

Before I came to Narcotics Anonymous, I couldn’t stay clean if my life depended on it. I had my first arrest in 1999, the courts told me I needed to go to NA meetings. At that time, I had never heard of Narcotics Anonymous. So, I sought out the meetings that I was told to attend, however, I never took it seriously. I ended up going to treatment several times, not really believing it would work. I never applied what I learned I would just do it my way. During my last run I had become so hopeless that the thought of killing myself looked good. I knew there was a different way to live, but I couldn’t stop using it. I’m so grateful for my last arrest in March of 2015 because I was truly saved, my Higher Power did for me, what I couldn’t do for myself. While I was locked up, I prayed for the obsession to be lifted. I didn’t want to use it anymore. When I got out of jail I went to another program and utilized all the resources they had. If I felt like leaving, I would go tell my counselor and she would tell me to go scrub my toilet. By the time I was done I didn’t want to leave anymore. When I graduated, I was so scared I was going to relapse because that was what I had always done in the past. What I did this time was I went to meetings sometimes I would go to 3 or 4 meetings a day. I got commitments, I got a sponsor who I love so much I really don’t think I would be here without her love and support. I built a support group of strong women that have become my best friends, and we are here for each other no matter what. During my active addiction I lost my 3 children. Today I have them all back I have 3 beautiful grandchildren that never have to see me loaded. I have accomplished so many goals that I have set for myself, I now work in treatment, and I get to help the still suffering addict, I get to sponsor woman and help walk them through the steps. Today I have a life worth living and I owe it all to Narcotics Anonymous. If I keep doing what is suggested I will be celebrating 10 years on March 22.